*fear*

~Diary type entry for the purpose of venting~

When I wrote for Take Root and Write, Shona, editor extraordinaire, would get so flustered with me because I don't like to capitalize satan. Bless her heart :) I know it is proper and all but I just don't like to do it. I don't think he deserves it. Another word I don't like to capitalize is fear.

Boy when God wants you to deal with something, it pops up all over the place doesn't it? This foul FOUR LETTER WORD fear keeps coming around. It seems everything I read about lately or hear about is telling my to face my fears. It is such a tiny little word but it is so huge in our lives. God told us time and time again "fear NOT!" in His word so why is this still so hard for us to obey? I tried to blame my latest fear on confusion but God was having none of that. He told me, "You are not confused. You know exactly what you want." I don't have to tell you He was right- you already know He was. I just had to admit it.

Ok so why is this so darn hard? Why am I holding on to something that is gut wrenching? Why...why...why???? I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. RRRR It's not like I haven't done this before, it's not like I haven't already ended up on both sides of the situation, and look I'm still here! It will not kill me. So again, what's the problem??

On the other side of the FOUR LETTER WORD coin there is Love. Love is on the other side of every four letter word. If we flip the coin over we will see love. God is love. God is on the flipside of every situation. Which side are you going to look at today?